1. About ten years ago I had root canal surgery in the chair at the dentist. Shortly thereafter I was in hospital with the onset of septic shock. It was the worst thing, just about ever. I woke up with bruises on my chest from where the surgeon had had to use his knee to lever my jaw open, which had started to lock. In any case I tell you this story because a) the dentist, fucking go there before it gets to that point, and b) because the only good thing to pluck from this crucible of horror was this fantastic hallucination I experienced as the anesthesia took hold: I saw myself standing in an enormous, mist-filled green field looking into a tree line. All around me I could hear the envelope of silence, an almost audible sound of silence, which was suddenly broken when a band of horses thundered out of the trees towards me. I felt their wake brush me as they came within inches of my body while I stood there motionless and unafraid. A band of white horses, just like these. Except not from the sea, obviously. Then they were gone and silence returned until I heard the surgeon say, “bone-stretching.” After that it went back to horrifying, but the horse thing was, I think, the only truly transcendental moment of my life.  thisanimalisawesome:

    About ten years ago I had root canal surgery in the chair at the dentist. Shortly thereafter I was in hospital with the onset of septic shock. It was the worst thing, just about ever. I woke up with bruises on my chest from where the surgeon had had to use his knee to lever my jaw open, which had started to lock.

    In any case I tell you this story because a) the dentist, fucking go there before it gets to that point, and b) because the only good thing to pluck from this crucible of horror was this fantastic hallucination I experienced as the anesthesia took hold: I saw myself standing in an enormous, mist-filled green field looking into a tree line. All around me I could hear the envelope of silence, an almost audible sound of silence, which was suddenly broken when a band of horses thundered out of the trees towards me. I felt their wake brush me as they came within inches of my body while I stood there motionless and unafraid. A band of white horses, just like these. Except not from the sea, obviously.

    Then they were gone and silence returned until I heard the surgeon say, “bone-stretching.” After that it went back to horrifying, but the horse thing was, I think, the only truly transcendental moment of my life. 

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